After my last final was finished yesterday, and after I took back the last batch of books back to the library (if anyone would now like to read up on French sociolinguistics, now’s your chance – all the books have been returned), I headed home. Then I took a nap, ate some dinner and watched a little TV.
Today was…different. I have not had so much free time since I got back from France. Actually, I have not had so much free time since before I left for France. And to tell you the truth, I don’t know what to do with myself. Oh, I slept in, made some pies, and started to read a novel (merely for my own enjoyment – imagine that!). But what do I do? After months of running hither and yon, making lists and grids, feeling guilty if I spent a half an hour daydreaming, I feel at loose ends. Sure, I have grad school applications to get together, but now that I have no other demands on my time, it will be (almost) a cake walk.
I also don’t know what I will do without the social stimulus of work and school. Oh, I have some small social plans, but every day of the week, I had somewhere to be and people to see. Now I’m just pestering the cat.
I pray that GSS will have another paper finished, ready for me to proofread (and not just because that would give me an opportunity to see him, though I won’t lie – that would be good), so I will have something to do. I have a couple of articles to read, again for no other purpose than personal improvement. I’ll have to dig out the handful of books I bought while in France that I never got around to reading. Plus, I did have the idea of organizing my crap and packing some of it (I have plenty of books that I know I’m not going to look at before the end of spring semester) – all the better to ease my transition from here to wherever the fates will have me go. And I did have the idea of seeing how much Spanish I could learn over break (hey, its a romance language, just different morphemes to memorize). So I do have plans, which is for the best, as I have lost the ability to “chill out.”
I say that now, of course; I suspect I could be slug-like, given half a chance.